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.Shockley depended entirely on Emmy.He was loyaland faithful.He called her Mrs Shockley to others.He was romantic inhis own way, often sending flowers, and she apparently was a sucker forflowers.She adored him, and almost never regretting a moment. Wehad fun, she says often, using a word not usually associated with BillShockley.To Emmy he was and is a great man.She happily devoted herlife to him and would not listen to unbelievers.When they met, Emmy was a very bright woman in a world thatundervalued very bright women.She was headed for a productive but I LOVE YOU 265unglamorous career in Columbus.Less than two years later, she wasdancing with the King of Sweden at the Nobel ball, and beginning a lifetraveling the world.She made her bargain, and she did not look back.She and Shockley did have some bad moments, she confessed.Thearrangement had been from the start that if either of them wanted out ofthe marriage, all they had to do was say so.Twice Emmy felt it was timeto end it, she says, but she said later she could not remember why.Shedescribes the incidents as disagreements. During the first incident, asthey sat in the family room, he said nothing, just shook his head.Theylater agreed they would try again, and they did.The second time, sheremembers, was at the kitchen table.She never left, though.He appar-ently never brought up the subject.He was smart enough to know heneeded her.Shockley worked out of the last two bedrooms at the end of a longhallway.They slept in the front bedroom, just off the entrance hall.When he finally had to abandon his campus offices, he moved themountain of material to the house, stacking up cardboard boxes in thegarage, in two safes, and in both offices.The house was always neat, orderly and immaculate exceptShockley s office, where stuff was piled all over: on the floor, on the desk,on shelves.Tape cassettes were everywhere, as were magazines, clippingsand notebooks.His photocopy machine, worked almost to the point ofmetal fatigue, sat opposite his desk, ever handy. What can I do, Emmyasked to one reporter? I don t tell him to clean it up.He s the one thatbosses me around. 102Most of his electronic equipment came from the local Radio Shackstore.His favorite was a clock radio that projected the time on the ceilingover his bed.He regularly listened to a radio talk show from Chicago inthe middle of the night, and he could keep track of the time by watchingthe ceiling.His security blanket was his portable Sony tape recorder.102Most of the time, when Shockley and Emmy were not working, theywere either outside on the back deck or in the family room, which waslined with books.The centerpiece of the room was a large television setand a well-used videotape player.A good day ended over drinks outside,if they could; in the family room when they could not.May s paintings and those of one of her friends were the only art in theliving room.A small table next to the main door, looking a bit like ashrine, was a collection of awards; shelves across the entrance way helda display of objects, including a model of the first transistor. 266 I LOVE YOUShockley was often in the garden and confessed a minor fascinationwith the physics of sprinkler heads, even writing a treatise on them.Hedrove around for almost ten years in a 1974 Fleetwood Cadillac, butthey mostly used a small Chevrolet Chevette.They had very few friends left.He had driven the rest away andfrankly did not miss them, he said. The type of people I am drawn to arethose who have similar views to my own, he said. These views are themain focus of our activities.These are not ones in which any particularteamwork has developed with other people. 102 He was not likely tomake many new friends, largely because of his famous propensity toinviting guests to dinner and leaving them at the table to return to workin his office down the hall, letting Emmy pick up the pieces, as she didwith Jensen.82 He was not a gracious host.Until his health began to fail, he made constant use of Stanford s twoswimming pools, where he was famous for insisting that everyone in thepool was in a race with him whether they knew it or not.Others wouldjump or dive into the water, do a few laps, and get out.Shockley sawanyone in the pool as competition, swam along side them and startedracing them, sometimes taunting them to challenge him.130 Once, whenGibbons, half his age, wouldn t race, Shockley sneered, Chicken! andswam away.131 After a while, a few waited until he got out of the poolbefore getting in to avoid him.Emmy never saw his insensitivity, and seemed incapable of interpretinghow he behaved as ill-mannered or unbalanced.He was not, she insists,insensitive to her, quite the opposite. He would know that I was feelingbad about something and he would do something about it.He wouldn ttalk about it, she says. I d talk first; he d just do something.His sensitivityand perceptiveness are very important qualities of his, she said, slippinginto the present tense as she sometimes did almost a decade after hisdeath. He was a very warm, sensitive, perceptive person. 41 Her opinionof his sensitivity puts her in a minority of one, and his former secretary,Mary Clouthier, contradicts her description.Clouthier says that in the1960, Emmy s hearing began to fail, and often Shockley would tell her todo something that she did not hear.Unaware of her hearing loss, appar-ently or possibly just insensitive to it he would yell at her on the tele-phone because she had not followed his orders.Clouthier says the painfulscenes were a reason she eventually quit.But that surely is not the image of Shockley that absorbs Emmy.Toher, he was the great romantic and theirs was a true love story, even if I LOVE YOU 267their picture of love and the rest of the world s sometimes were out ofregister. I don t know what you mean, really, by love.We had our own defini-tion about what it was to be in love.It was no enchanted evening thingever [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]
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.Shockley depended entirely on Emmy.He was loyaland faithful.He called her Mrs Shockley to others.He was romantic inhis own way, often sending flowers, and she apparently was a sucker forflowers.She adored him, and almost never regretting a moment. Wehad fun, she says often, using a word not usually associated with BillShockley.To Emmy he was and is a great man.She happily devoted herlife to him and would not listen to unbelievers.When they met, Emmy was a very bright woman in a world thatundervalued very bright women.She was headed for a productive but I LOVE YOU 265unglamorous career in Columbus.Less than two years later, she wasdancing with the King of Sweden at the Nobel ball, and beginning a lifetraveling the world.She made her bargain, and she did not look back.She and Shockley did have some bad moments, she confessed.Thearrangement had been from the start that if either of them wanted out ofthe marriage, all they had to do was say so.Twice Emmy felt it was timeto end it, she says, but she said later she could not remember why.Shedescribes the incidents as disagreements. During the first incident, asthey sat in the family room, he said nothing, just shook his head.Theylater agreed they would try again, and they did.The second time, sheremembers, was at the kitchen table.She never left, though.He appar-ently never brought up the subject.He was smart enough to know heneeded her.Shockley worked out of the last two bedrooms at the end of a longhallway.They slept in the front bedroom, just off the entrance hall.When he finally had to abandon his campus offices, he moved themountain of material to the house, stacking up cardboard boxes in thegarage, in two safes, and in both offices.The house was always neat, orderly and immaculate exceptShockley s office, where stuff was piled all over: on the floor, on the desk,on shelves.Tape cassettes were everywhere, as were magazines, clippingsand notebooks.His photocopy machine, worked almost to the point ofmetal fatigue, sat opposite his desk, ever handy. What can I do, Emmyasked to one reporter? I don t tell him to clean it up.He s the one thatbosses me around. 102Most of his electronic equipment came from the local Radio Shackstore.His favorite was a clock radio that projected the time on the ceilingover his bed.He regularly listened to a radio talk show from Chicago inthe middle of the night, and he could keep track of the time by watchingthe ceiling.His security blanket was his portable Sony tape recorder.102Most of the time, when Shockley and Emmy were not working, theywere either outside on the back deck or in the family room, which waslined with books.The centerpiece of the room was a large television setand a well-used videotape player.A good day ended over drinks outside,if they could; in the family room when they could not.May s paintings and those of one of her friends were the only art in theliving room.A small table next to the main door, looking a bit like ashrine, was a collection of awards; shelves across the entrance way helda display of objects, including a model of the first transistor. 266 I LOVE YOUShockley was often in the garden and confessed a minor fascinationwith the physics of sprinkler heads, even writing a treatise on them.Hedrove around for almost ten years in a 1974 Fleetwood Cadillac, butthey mostly used a small Chevrolet Chevette.They had very few friends left.He had driven the rest away andfrankly did not miss them, he said. The type of people I am drawn to arethose who have similar views to my own, he said. These views are themain focus of our activities.These are not ones in which any particularteamwork has developed with other people. 102 He was not likely tomake many new friends, largely because of his famous propensity toinviting guests to dinner and leaving them at the table to return to workin his office down the hall, letting Emmy pick up the pieces, as she didwith Jensen.82 He was not a gracious host.Until his health began to fail, he made constant use of Stanford s twoswimming pools, where he was famous for insisting that everyone in thepool was in a race with him whether they knew it or not.Others wouldjump or dive into the water, do a few laps, and get out.Shockley sawanyone in the pool as competition, swam along side them and startedracing them, sometimes taunting them to challenge him.130 Once, whenGibbons, half his age, wouldn t race, Shockley sneered, Chicken! andswam away.131 After a while, a few waited until he got out of the poolbefore getting in to avoid him.Emmy never saw his insensitivity, and seemed incapable of interpretinghow he behaved as ill-mannered or unbalanced.He was not, she insists,insensitive to her, quite the opposite. He would know that I was feelingbad about something and he would do something about it.He wouldn ttalk about it, she says. I d talk first; he d just do something.His sensitivityand perceptiveness are very important qualities of his, she said, slippinginto the present tense as she sometimes did almost a decade after hisdeath. He was a very warm, sensitive, perceptive person. 41 Her opinionof his sensitivity puts her in a minority of one, and his former secretary,Mary Clouthier, contradicts her description.Clouthier says that in the1960, Emmy s hearing began to fail, and often Shockley would tell her todo something that she did not hear.Unaware of her hearing loss, appar-ently or possibly just insensitive to it he would yell at her on the tele-phone because she had not followed his orders.Clouthier says the painfulscenes were a reason she eventually quit.But that surely is not the image of Shockley that absorbs Emmy.Toher, he was the great romantic and theirs was a true love story, even if I LOVE YOU 267their picture of love and the rest of the world s sometimes were out ofregister. I don t know what you mean, really, by love.We had our own defini-tion about what it was to be in love.It was no enchanted evening thingever [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]